mar jao ya jee lu zara

prisoner of its own mind. victim of its own intelligence.

all animals have a basic set of emotions- anger and lust. humans have evolved beyond this and we can comprehend something more complex as love. its a powerful driving force , and a destructive one too. can you ever love someone so much that word are simply too ineffective to communicate?. its funny how you only realise the power of it only when you see the destruction causes. when things are falling apart right in front of you. when you know the reason behind all of it, when you know what you can do to stop it , still a prisoner of your own mind, you cannot act. for that one person who cudnt care less, ruining everthing around you. and still you are happy for the ruins, coz these very ruins are your hideout, your secret place. step by step you can see things going wrong, your hand twitching to act, when your heart is heavy over your mind. the point where your own mind makes you fearful, the point where you realise your heart is flowing with a emotion so strong that any logic your mind throws at it, is simply washed away in the deluge.
there is funny mathematics going on here. there is no point of inflexion, you gradually reach a point where the graph frightens your mind, but brings joy to your heart. it is then that all your actions are only a result of love. in your own twisted way, it is completely logical that your own life be wasted, but that one single person stays happy.
intelligence can be a bane. maybe there is a point in intelligence where your intellect grows so much that you can finally comprehend all this, act beyond it. or maybe there is a point where you realise all that you have lost, and what passes for depression is actually your reality. the question is which of these points comes first, which is frankly frightening.

so many abstract thgts...all making sense sumhow...anyways these are ravings of an idle mind...an idle mind is a devils workshop...life is all about experiences...and anything you run away from is an oppurtunity lost...so it is this same intelligence that drives you forward to live your life...making you enjoy the finer things in life...so beat it!!!!!!!!!!